california standard star test

stuffy room
crouded rows
number two pencils
questions nobody knows

no drinking water
or looking around
have to face forward
feet on the ground

so many questions
each with its own bubble
cant ask for help
that would cause trouble

no making noise
it breaks the concentration
keep turning the page
with no hesitation

a big waste of time
to see what we know
hours of thinking
makes time go by slow

certain pages say stop
so we dont skip ahead
then we just sit
relieving stress from our head

we hear the bell
and rush to the door
we all seem to forget
when we come back there is more

gods angel donna

my new mom
in lots of pain
they dont know whats wrong
maby something in her brain

shes got tons of family
and a lot of support
so no matter what happens
we'l be there for her

she needs to get tested
to see whats wrong
so she can get help
so she can move along

i keep my thoughts up
and pray every night
i know god will listen
he will help her fight

shes a great person
one thats hard to find
one of gods angels
and one of a kind

my vows

these vows are all my promises
or everything i will do
there more then words on paper
but a way to prove i love you

love is a big word
that is why i say it to you
but the words that mean the most
are the two words " i do "

" i do " means forever
but that is not that long
its only great if spent together
our love will always be strong

as our rings are put on our fingers
we will become one
two people brought together
living in unison

i stand here before god
and all the world to see
to show how serius i am
and how much you mean to me

i promis to be faithful
and to only love you
and i mean all these promises
the moment i say " i do "

for better or for worse
ill be right by your side
my feelings you'll always know
from you i will never hide

for richer or for poorer
id live in a box
i couldnt want more
you fill my heart to the top

today is the begging
of our life spent together
you'll have a friend for life
but a companion forever

drugs

more and more
to ease your pain
so many drugs
just to feel sain

first you stop caring
then you cant think
your a worm on a hook
as stuck as fish bait

it becomes your life
now all that you do
you forgot your family
forgot to say i love you

people feel forgotten
and start to grow apart
there souls turn rotten
because of a broken heart

you try to fix it
but end up in relaps
i knew you couldnt change
that is just a fact

mom

your worse then him
your just a fake
you will not win
no more can you take

stop the lies
stop the act
your made of ice
and thats a fact

your not a victem
this was your choice
why did you choose them
it came from your voice

men cant help you
i tried and failed
you have to
but now your just stail

excuses and lies
pity and denile
look through your eyes
life is a trial

shelly hottell

i never thought id see the day
when you would tell me that your sorry
and i never thought id hear you say
im sorry that i made you worry

well mom i forgive you
and thats all you had to say
but i have something to say too
and that is my pain wont go away

actions are the key
though words are nice to hear
its easy to deceive
and the truth people fear

mom i am not only proud of you
for the person you have become
i hope you know i always love you
but now you are number one

those few words from the heart
are what mean the most to me
its a begging and a start
and now i dont hurt so deeply

my sick boyfriend

i dont know how you are
or what has gone wrong
because you arnt at school today
my txt are unanswered all day long

i worry because i love you
i love you and i care
i also miss you to
without you i am bare

i hope your safe at home
and not in any danger
without you im alone
even i feel like a stranger

time goes by extremely slow
when your not right by my side
i only wish i could no
because worrying makes me cry

snow

theres something about a snowflake
that brings joy into my eyes
because when i see that big white flake
it brings its own discuise

not only could it mean no school
and no work at all
but no more wheel barrels of leaves to pull
because today is the end of fall

we listen on the radio
to hear the weatherman say
there wont be any school tomorrow
and no school for today

dad?????????

shes confused on why shes mad at hm
and why he doesnt care
she wants him to be her dad again
but knows those feelings they dont share

the only contact he makes with her
is when she makes him see
how much he makes her suffer
and how much he makes her bleed

some people say its for attention
i tjought it was a cry for help
i couldnt take all the suspention
and i knew i couldnt end it myself

he doesnt know to this day
the pain she feels inside
she almost took her own life away
but knows the pain confirms shes still alive

daddy through my eyes

when i was a little girl
i looked into my daddys eyes
and when he said he loved me
 it wasnt a big suprise

i said i love you to daddy
more then my arms go wide
but all those feelings changed for me
the day daddy made me cry

he left when i was young
and rarely did he come back
i always bit my tounge
when mommy said. daddy loves you back

the older that i got
the more daddy made me cry
though it came as less a shock
when he told another lie

daddy always had an excuse
so the further we grew apart
daddy wouldnt even stop drug use
thats when i knew daddy didnt have a heart

unthoughtful dad

she tells him she loves him
another mistake
she always forvives him
though his words are still fake

her feelings slip
he sneaks right in
plays a guilt trip
and it all starts again

she is the daughter
and more mature
he is the father
what a figure

whoever thought
love is all you need
must of forgot
people love greed

parents

im glad your life is great
because without me you seem fine
i know that i can move on from this
and that healing takes some time

i seem to learn the hard way
but beleive me im doing great
because in my years to come
i will soon just walk away

you like to take the credit
for the great things that i do
sorry to let you down
but i didnt learn them from you

instead i saw what i didnt like
from you and all your flaws
then i knew what not to do
and that made me stop and pause

so i guess you get a tadbit credit
not something you hould praise
and now o am the oppisite of you
and i thank god of that everyday

the old man i got to know

one day as we were driving by
i saw a old man sitting on the side
he asked for money, i asked him why
then he looked at me and started to cry

i gave him my change
and i took a seat
he showed me his things
and a old cantine

he asked if i
assumbed it was beer
i answered yes
he said thats not fair

i know i am dirty
and egging is cheap
but i am to old for working
and my wife wont wake from her sleep

i sit on this corner
and pray everyday
that my ife knows i love her
and im glad her pain went away

though i know she is gone
i still miss her so
i can never move on
untill its my time to go

window veiw

when i look out my window
i see a big old empty world
its full of all these people
but where is there soul

everyone has a boss
they always do what ther told
they dont know what theyv'e lost
because there heart has grown cold

money can buy items
but it cant buy you love
freinds you cant buy them
and trust doesnt come with a shove

life doesnt fit on a squedule
and its changing all the time
you should live for the moments
life does have a deadline

deppression

depression is a feeling
a great pain inside
all your layers are peeling
even happiness and pride

you succomb to the darknes
the light is just to bright
you havent got a harness
on why you want to cry

theres easy ways to fix it
none of wich are safe
you dont know why you feel it
now your bodies like a cave

your feelings have you surrounded
by then you are trapped
then everything darkend
and there was no going back

love at the hayfork fair

she was first to say goodbye
he was the last to say hello
they didnt want to think
about tomorrow

he said i love you
she said i love you to
but before you go
i have something to tell you

she met him at fair
he was prince charming
she loved his hair
and personality

he was kind
he had all the right things to say
she melted in his arms
every hour every day

on the last day of fair
he said his goodbyes
said he had to move
far away

far away was idaho
she said i cant let you go
i love you please stay
i love you please stay

grampa fred

you live your life
with no regrets
we will always love you
i will never forget

your preshus memory
sticks to my mind
i will always love you
everyday and all the time

i will miss you all the time
then i will remember
how you brought
joy in to my life

you live your life
with no regrets
you did your deeds
now its time to spread your wings

foster home journey

she wants to know
she wants to go
everybody thinks she'll grow
to this new place

she wants to find out
she wants to learn
but she's still trying
to see there faces

its hard to see
its hard to try
when she's looking for her mom
and if she's alive

she has to stay strong
she doesn't want to cry
she wants to fight
because they all think they know her life

she wants to belong
she feels all wrong
at least she made it through
another cloudy day

barely a father

you said you were my father
that lie i can't beleive
you said i was your daughter
are you sure thats really me

i won't beleive your lies
you never tell the truth
you think your in discuise
i have beyound enough proof

a daughter loves her father
he's supposed to show it back
you dont even bother
as a father you turned your back

kirk hottell

life has been hard
the pain has been great
i waited for you
but you came to late

i waited for years
for you to come rescue me
but you left me in tears
you gave up so easily

the others dont care
i took it to heart
they dont think i should share
my words are to harsh for your heart

my words wern't always mean
i loved you unconditionally
i was always on your team
when you were my family

nowmy pain has gone bitter
and you don't understand
actions speak louder then words
is that such a big demand

alone

again and again
she hid her feelings within
her hopes her dreams
her spirit had broken

they didn't know why
they didn't care
so she screamed and she yelled
but noone could hear

she ran to her room
feeling very alone
then she stared at her blade
convinced that would send her home

her mom came to her room
knowing she had made a mistake
but when she walked in the room
her daughter was dead laying next to the blade

she knelt down to feel but there was no heartrate
she read a small piece of paper wrapped around the blade
in bold letters it said you were always to late
i cried and i prayed but my feelings were delayed

another liar

words are words
you tell them well
i beleived them all
untill i fell

i fell so low
i saw your plans
i watched your actions
and listened to your scams

it was hard at first
i felt your pain
i stayed around
but YOU never came

you have a new family
to fill your heart
so you forgot about us
what you did was...restart

i know my place now
you move on and forget
were just kids you got stuck with
now we dont fit

so while you move on
i'll do just the same
you think its my fault
you have only yourself to blame

when mom moved away

it will be the last
I see of her
she's gone away
gone for sure

she won't look back
she think's he's safe
come to help her
and find her place

she'll go with him
all alone
he'll trap her there
she won't come home

a sad day will come
when were all dressed in black
he said it was a accident
she fell on her back

she never learned
those men were bad
never loved her
but wanted what she had

she refused all warnings
wouldnt look at the facts
instead she left
but she did come back

she lays in a coffin
with flowers in her bed
finally at rest
only to be dead